God these cold nights have gone on far far too long. Being alone, being so very alone with no one there. No one to care, no one to hold, love and trust. Far to cold to bare on ones own, but who else to bare them with when no one is there? These cold nights embrace those and take them deeper into the pit as they sit there and think. Staring at that wall, that vice that just happens to always be there. But that wall, with all of it's features crevices and cracks. It is still just an empty wall, nothing there for you to hold, nothing there for you to have. You just want to be, you want to be something for once for someone FOR SOMETHING...Anything.



But it keeps going, and it keeps going on and on and never stops, no no no it never NEVER ends. The cold bites at you harder and deeper and takes you further down, down into that pit where you feel "safe" because it's always "there" for you. But really you need a new vice, a new hold, a new grasp. Something to bring you back on your feet, off that bed, out of that chair. AWAY FROM THAT WALL. But you can't can you? You can't do it, you can't bring yourself up off your back and back onto those feet that once carried you so far. Far enough to get you to where you are now. For what? Just so you can sit there in your self pity.



We must rise, we must stand, we must take action. Take actions in our lives, take actions in our things, take actions for the things we want. So what if the nights are cold, dark, and unwanting. There are people, things, loves that can change that for you. So what if they are out of your reach, KEEP REACHING. If you fall get back up and keep pursuing. Show them you care, show them you want, SHOW THEM EVERYTHING. Don't just succumb and be weak once more, once you are back on your feet. Make a stand and make it count.



I know, I know very well that your heart will hurt and you just want to die. But life comes with pain, anguish, and lose. You must push forward though, no longer stay in a standstill called life. Push, push, PUSH rise up to the top and show those that you are worthy of life. Show them you have a reason to be here, and to account for your actions. Show the one you have your heart set out for just what you mean, just how much they mean. Shed tears, blood, words anything to them to bring it out. Bare your heart and soul to them, and allow them to accept it for who you really are.



Yes it will be hard, but you were given a choice and you were given a heart for a reason. To be strong, and be proud. To become what it is that you want to be, so that your dreams may come true. So please for yourself, and what is for you and your heart. Continue, strive, pursue whatever it is your heart desires. Whether it be right or wrong, as long as you are happy as long as that something is there for you. As long as you are able to get away from that vice, that wall that was always so greeting to you on cold nights.



And once you have that something, keep it close and never lose it. Hold it forever in your arms, appreciate it and always show you care. And never again will you have to succumb to those cold nights alone, no longer will you have a anguish in your heart that breaks the core. You will at that time become whole, become one, become something. Something to someone, and they become something to you. Live, laugh, love. Never forget, you are who you are no matter what someone says. And you can do anything as long as you have the heart to do it. Go for that girl, go for that goal, go for whatever it is. And be happy.